Questions
On my walk I've come to a place where I have never been before. I'm giving up to try myself and let God do in me whatever he wants. The freedom that comes from it is astounding! At the same time I have one of the biggest battles raging in me for control; one for self, one for Him. I'm confused with what I have been believing and living, questioning the things I thought I was really standing on, like salvation, speaking with God, walking with him and most of all the cross. I have never seen the cross, the words spoken in the worst pain: "It is done". How I want to see the love and be filled by it, the spirit filling everything of me. But what if God asks you: "Should I do this now or over years?". I don't know what to answer.
posted by Luke | Tuesday, January 16, 2007
2 Comments:
Glad to see you're blogging again, and refocusing on what your blog is all about. Your questions are big questions, for sure! I think that is a lifelong pursuit, trying to cast off all the idolatries we hold in the depths of our hearts and letting the spirit fill every corner of it.
Might I suggest another book to you if you haven't read it yet: "Desiring God" by John Piper. It's gold.
Ultimately we must all climb the mountain with Abraham and Isaac. Sometimes we're Isaac, wondering where the lamb is, but going along knowing we might be it, yet uncertain. There is no intellectual out here; tho the mind is best settled set on Him. What Father is doing transcends reason; He is remaking an idolater in the image of a true worshipper. Daily, daily hope; daily, daily believe; and let love carry you.
At this stage it is very important that you cultivate a trust in the Lord, again one that based in the intellect, but in your "knower," where you know that you know, where you can hope beyond hope. I call it prayer experience or experiental prayer, instead of meditation as you'll read on books of mystics of years past, because it (the conversation) involves interaction and persons and events and places and faces.
This is my 1st comment to you, and I'd like to thank you for sharing.
Post a Comment
<< Home